Sunday, October 17, 2010

Dear Readers,

A few days after my last dreadful post, I woke up feeling like a new woman. For the most part, I am now able to eat what I want to. I can get out of bed, and clean, and J doesn't have to look for me around the house when he gets home. I feel fantastic and was even able to run a 5k on Saturday. I hope this news is good....I don't know.

I will have an ultra sound on October 25th and will know more then.
I appreciate your thoughts and prayers...I really really do.
Love to all,

Friday, October 8, 2010

As requested..

I promised myself I wouldn't complain during this pregnancy, because we've waited and hoped for it for so long.

Heck with that.

Right now, as I write this, I feel like my stomach is eating REALLY eating itself, in order to get nourishment..... Because it's STARVING....but at the same time, it hates food.

Some days it will tolerate a cheese sandwich for breakfast, but that's it.
Some mornings it wants chili.
One day it yelled at me for a sausage McMuffin
The next it was a burger, fries and a shake
The next day, handfuls of potato chips,
the next day all it would let me eat were cookie dough truffles.
And one day, I don't think I ate anything at all.

At this point, all I'm after is calories. I don't care where they come from.

I'm so starving/tired/starving that all I can do is lay there.... and most days, Jordan will come home to a disaster area and won't be able to find me for a while because I've plopped down on a random bed or floor somewhere to rest.

My parenting skills have deteriorated to almost nothing and my children have watched more tv over the past month than they have in their entire lives. If I had my way they'd be in bed by 6 pm...because I can't deal with the fighting, or the whining, or their constant needs. I feel like I'm constantly getting drinks of their junk off the floor, and wiping poopy butts.

And peeing.

I want my mom.
And a maid.

That's all for now. :)